Those words r still ringing in my ear
They came from beneath your skin
From within
I can’t believe your so cold
It makes me shiver and reminisce
To think I ever thought u as a unsinful sin
Now betrays me in the abis
Toture so true
To hear those dreadful words from you
‘MOVE THE FUCK ON’
If only I knew how to …
Waking up and realizing your not here is a terrible thing. I look back at this and I’m thinking Wow.. the story repeated. I’m feeling the same way I swore I never would. I guess that’s what happenes when your a person like me.
Saw you turn into a ghost right in front of my eyes
Tell me what’s a girl to do when she’s crying inside?
I’m about to go insane, I’m jumping off this train
Whether wrong or right I’ll be gone by night,
Cant Believe im Saying This Bt All The Pain And Just Everything That Happen, I Honestly Dont Know Why We Are Together <|3
What u made me feel wasnt love… it was pain. it was torture. it was revenge. all the love that u said u had for me seemed nothing. seemed like if it evaporated nd u wannted to see me on my knees begging for you. congrats u made it happen, u had me at my weakest. u could ask for forgiveness when u mess up bt i cant ask for it. then after u do all the torturing u ask for forgiveness nd that u do wanna make it work after making me go through the pain u put me through. u might think thats what i wannted u to feel not to long ago when i said i quit. bt the difference is that i had a legit reason all ur reason was cuz i dont stand up for myself (which is part of me). i am a push over cuz if i stand up for myself it means im being rude or im in a bitchy mood or im just trying to be someone im not. ive got told that, that whenever i say no to someone im a bitch or is in the wrong mood. i cant defend myself. nd i thought u would understand that bt u didnt u just kept going. saying that i prefer my friends over u cuz they come first. bt u didnt understand that i just couldnt stand up for myself nd what i love. now u ask what i think of everything? i think its all shit. i do love u, i do wanna be with u. bt i dont think i will ever b the same after today. It wasnt just U bt a bunch of shit just like a pile on me not letting me go or be confortable. Ppl ordering me around like their bitch, me resisting nd them thinking im being an ass. talking shit even if im right there in earshot. getting a lower grade just because “i work fast nd makles the rest of us look stupid” making me feel like if i really am stupid nd can never b on top. wanting to do more work bt i cant cuz their grade is more important then mine. having to deal with an old friend that is just causing me more stress. having my final just thinking how shity my life is. everyone thinks its perfect pft fuk that shit its not. having to stay quite put a fake smile so everyone could be happy except me. then comming home having to deal with my parents, that if they see me shed a tear they dont stop asking question like if i was with a cop. not shutting up just making me feel worse. and a lot of other shit that i cant take no more. im sorry i digressed, end of the story i dont believe in love no more. i dont believe a person is capable of loving another human being. even so called “couples that r in love” have issues. i believe u can care for a person bt not love. nd u showed me that today along with the rest of them. im done with the world its all full of shit…
u scream for help but no one listens. i see it in ur eyes when u look at me, i can see the pain u have been through, nd how u lost hope. nd it hurts how i cant help you as i myself am screaming for help…
for how long do we have to carry with all the bullshit in our lives ? I can’t even turn the corner without bullshit beng said. but the world wouldn’t know how to function without all that bs. that my love is the scary part
life is an adventure that we all must take, yea it has its ups nd downs but sometimes these adventures end sooner then expected, we don’t know when they will end. one day u might leave ur house nd just not come back. on saterday billy left his house thinking he was gonna go back to school on monday morning with the excitement of winning the game… that night he never made it back home… God has taken in a great angel
